19 Mar 2018, 15:43

Getting https working on AB

15:43 Monday 19 March 2018 JST

Nice to see setting up SSL certificates for Apache 2 on Ubuntu is pretty easy. They even automagically set up a cron job to renew the certificate after two months. See /etc/cron.d/certbot

I had a problem for a minute because one .conf file had a domain and an alias in it. I ran certbot for the aliased domain and told it to go ahead and force https, but then that broke the main domain (which was the main domain) by forcing SSL and using the certificates for the test domain.

So I split the .conf files into two different files (This is a technique called WET (Write Everything Twice)) which might suck for future me, but now AB is available via https. Noice!

I’ll write future me a note.

Hey future Rob

testadmin.ab.com exists as a separate file to ensure the correct SSL
certificates are used for the domain.

Feel free to wipe the domain from the map; I don't use it very often.

    past Rob

18 Mar 2018, 16:40

mt3: progressing nicely

16:40 Sunday 18 March 2018 JST

An interesting thing is happening with the stage rotation. Last week I noticed a chopstick was sticking out too far for the stage to turn all the way around, and this time it has hit the wall and begun to hamper the rotation of the stage.

I think the cutter guy might cut the offending chopstick and have the stage spring forward, which I may do in slow motion again, like when the manager got yanked by the spinning bearing while they tried to wrangle it.

In waking reality, I stopped to let the glue dry after I placed the medium/small marble splitter track (the track which will have the medium sized marble veer to the left while small marbles continue forward).

2018 mar 18 small curvy track 2018 mar 18 top view of split

17 Mar 2018, 15:49

men's circle meets every Tuesday

15:49 Saturday 17 March 2018 JST

The men’s circle now meets every Tuesday. New men are welcome on the first Tuesday each month. Email info@ this domain to get information about the meeting location.

17 Mar 2018, 15:33

mt3 glued three pieces

15:33 Saturday 17 March 2018 JST

I think I added four seconds of video today in about an hour and a half. Pretty speedy because at some points only two characters were moving.

Since June 2017, I have spent 6.3+ days on Marble Track 3.

The resulting videos available via https://mt3s.robnugen.com/ are like 8 minutes 32 seconds long.

17 Mar 2018, 11:21

productive day

11:21 Saturday 17 March 2018 JST

St Patrick’s Day today and I wrote a letter to Ma, and all of these so far

2) eat well
2) brush teeth in morning
2) do ten pushups
2) do 40 second plank
2) do 45 kettlebell lifts
&) write quick letter to Ma
6) write Ma's address on envelope
&) target complete above by 10am
3) one pomo try to run on hardware
2) do ten more pushups
2) do 40 second plank again
3) one pomo try to run on hardware
&) target complete above by 11:30am
0) do two pomos of hypnotherapy
&) target complete above by 12:30pm

Plus started the laundry and spent some time with babychan, who is also getting her stuff done.

It’s a tiny bit too cold to go outside and walk in sunshine, but I might do it anyway.

Things I am working on now include this journal entry:

7) write something

and others:

&) target complete above by 1:00pm
1) one hour building MT3 (https://mt3.robnugen.com)
&) target complete above by 3:00pm
8) P210の単語のページを使って、
8) 漢字の練習と文章を作っておいてください。
&) leave for Japanese circle by 4:30pm
6) go to Japanese men's circle
6) mail check to Ma
2) eat on the way home or meet Babychan somewhere
5) prepare IL Japan article
2) do not eat after 9pm
2) fill in contract regarding food

I just now got https working again on mt3.robnugen.com. For some reason it was set on something other than Let’s Encrypt on my Dreamhost account, but not sure how I might have done that. Weird. Anyway, it should work indefinitely until I stop paying or whatever.

16 Mar 2018, 23:23


23:23 Friday 16 March 2018 JST

Kinda lazy day, but now am finally caught up after trip last weekend. Did not get as much done with Complice items as I wanted, but still got more done than I think I would have without having Complice as a reminder, or without my accountability partner on the site.

I watched the most recent two episodes of かケグルイ(sp) and had a Japanese lesson with Fumiko. She gave me some homework so I wonder if I will do it.

Talked to Mikako today about kanji for my name; I had wanted to get a hanko made with my inkan, but turns out it’s not easy to get an officially recognized kanji for my name spelled with western characters. Might just give up on the idea, but I still need some kind of hanko, so I will get something.

14 Mar 2018, 21:12


21:12 Wednesday 14 March 2018 JST

After my morning lesson I had a big gap during which I had a big nap because dang I was tired. I seem to have gotten over the jet lag (new vocabulary word for some students today). I was roused by a security guard when I tried to nap on a grassy field on 3F of Lazona (next to Eggs N Things (or something)). But before he roused me, I got to sleep there about an hour or so, so that was nice.

They are putting a new green fake grass surface in Lazona, to give it a (fake) park-like atmosphere. It looks nice; I wonder how functional it will be.

Headed to JB at 3:30 and just finished a bit ago. 7pm lesson featured a discussion of WTC7, and 8pm lesson featured intonation practice. How are you? How are you?

13 Mar 2018, 16:06


16:06 Tuesday 13 March 2018 JST

ポートランドで男のグループのトレーニングに行ってきました。ずーっと裸足で 歩きました。日本に住んでた人と会って日本語をちょっと喋りました。

I went to Portland for a men’s group training. I was barefoot the entire time. I spoke Japanese with some people who had lived in Japan.

びっくりしたけど、リチャードゲージさん会いました。彼はインターネットで 何回か見て知っていた。ちょー嬉しかった!

Surprisngly, I met Richard Gage who I knew from videos online. Really happy to meet him!

彼は911真実しんじつ建築家 けんちくかとエンジニアの組織そ しき設立者せつりつしゃで す。

He is the founder of Architects and Engineers for 911 Truth.

13 Mar 2018, 16:02

back in Tokyo

16:02 Tuesday 13 March 2018 JST

Back in Japan now, on a bus headed to Tokyo from Narita airport. This bus is cheap and does not include electrical outlets like some airport trains do, but I have a bit of charge available on my computer (74% (was 79% when I started))

Ah; I can write Japanese for my lesson on Thursday.

13 Mar 2018, 01:46


01:46 Tuesday 13 March 2018 JST

09:46 Monday 12 March 2018 Portland

Recreational marijuana is legal in Oregon. I took advantage of this fact last night and had a really overall positive experience with several experiencial teachings I gained.

I am still a bit affected as I write this, sitting in the airport in Portland, waiting for my flight back to Narita.

The most interesting aspect about the experience itself was the time stretching. For a few chrono minutes, I experienced one timeline in reverse and another forward. In the reverse timeline, it was like causality was reversed. I got out an umbrella so it started raining. I had created the ampersand symbol so that I could try to &help myself out of this situation now. But that doesn’t make sense because if I did that, then I would have had to create computers, which would mean I had to create electricity, therefore earth, therefore the galaxy, all the way back to creating time.

I That was the bad part of trip; I was experiencing each choice I made as the wrong choice, leading myself to having fallen into this infinitely recursive spiraling infinity of loss, which happened at every moment going forward, during which each moment had me experiencing fear all the way from the beginning of time like watching a car wreck in slow motion after having already lived it. Each time they went all the way back to the beginning of the universe in which I created heaven and hell so that I could have the experience right now of saying “yes, you were right” to the devil, “you (Devil) can do anything you want (including run time two directions at one), and hell is real.”

The backwards timeline was both infinite and infinitesimal, with infinities available at any given point, like focusing in at the numbers in a number line.

0  1
0  0.5   1
0  0.1 0.2 0.3 0.4 0.5 0.6 0.7 0.8 0.9 1
0  0.001 0.002 0.003 0.004 0.005 0.006 0.007 0.008 0.009 1
0  0.000001 0.000002 0.000003 0.000004 0.000005 0.000006 ...

My host became the devil and was smiling at me as he had trapped me. Every decision I made including having come to this place was a trap of his design. I realized if every choice I made was the wrong choice, I might as well do something good for something while I am at it, so I started to pet Radar, my host’s dog who gave me some kisses. I kept petting Radar and the backwards timeline had less sway in my thinking and that began to let me focus on the forward moving “correct” timeline.

In that moment, I recognized that by focusing on fear (and feeling sorry for myself) I went further into the reverse timeline where everything was my fault, all leading to the ultimate stuck alone in hell experience, repeatedly experiencing all-my-choices-are-wrong and I-cannot-make-the-correct-choice.

So with that realization, I got my first experiencial knowing:

1) focusing on loving others brings me out of pain.

My host led me to the guest bedroom by way of the restroom to brush my teeth. I was able to floss, but not brush. I remember asking if I had already brushed as I couldn’t remember if I had. I lay down on the couch bed and started texting Jimmy, replying to his question from a few days ago. The convo below is paraphrased. J is for Jimmy and 私 marks things I wrote:

March 8th

J: “How was Portland?”

My first reply Mon 10pm:

私: I am high as fuck


私: It’s 22:22 now and I had crazy time dialation like rooms and centuries gone backward

Sorry have a good night

I am super high and time is going both backwards and forwards

With the devil on the forward side offering me good while he offered me bad with each reversing as I paid attention to the other timeline

It’s 22:25 and that took a small lifetime


私: Okay I got up and went to the bathroom. 01:14 now. Then I came back and took shower. I bought the soap from the soap factory I had established in the 1800s to cause world trade center to be destroyed so I could meet the guy behind a∓e911truth. Then I got busy with the American revolution before the one that started in 1776. And now I am sitting in the bathroom at 01:17

Or something like that kinda time was the delay before, like two or three hours ago.

((( me now at 10:10am: That was what I wrote, trying to capture an idea of the time dialation experience, and I note I was relatively correct when I said it was 2 or 3 hours ago. )))


J: this was your dream? or time warp or whatever?

私: Yes, That was the size of 110000000 of my dream

J: wild

私: One time was going backwards and one was going forwards. That was a bad trip for a second, I was stuck in an illogic loop, but then finally was able to think my way out.

((( me now at 10:15am Portland time Tuesday: What is kinda magnifying the effect is my computer being set to Japan time (still) and my phone being set to Portland time, and the chats only showing Portland Japan time as I write the in Portland time… and as I try to figure out what to write I still wrote the wrong geography for a second. )))

((( me now at 10:19am Portland time: at some point while I was texting Jimmy, I had the second big realization+knowing, that feelings are important. )))

feelings are important

Feelings help me distinguish between the right way to move forward and the way I do not wish to move forward. I knew this from before, but this time I (think I) learned it more deeply.


私: And even now while I’m typing, it is it while I’m awake, that time is slowing down But the one isn’t going backwards anyone At the long text I wrote two timestamps:

1:14 and 1;17

I felt it coming on ( Those timestamps, I mean, were accurate at the moment I wrote each one. ) I felt the cold before because I had been outside helping my (ghost) haha I typed host and my phone thought typed ghost

I had be outside helping my host with s can construction project when my high hit

We were calculate the ….. Voice to text now:


私: We were calculating how much to cut a pole on the fence and the gate because he had made a gate width with a fence posts that was a non standard width according to the market

I meant to type though not so Sometimes my phone doesn’t respond to my touch and I think it’s like normal I just has one of them weird now cuz I’m having this experience So the experience is no longer scary but for a minute it was scary

Because I didn’t know how long the Minit was I kept repeating some things that were scary and they were proving the experience was real I remember talking about water on the screen but not oil But I had protected the bad trip on my current host and something like he was in on the bad trip as well Which did the first trip I had just marked up is like my first trip and who cares that it was bad

But then the district because link to it has a like a logical circumstances both of my house were in on it that really freaked me out for a bit Because one time stream was going backwards and prove that this trip number two caused for trip number one to happen


J: yup, youre high

私: And that post number two was therefore in on the same bad trip like he had been planning for it in from reverse and It Forward going through. Time stream Some of the fucked-up text is because of this phone misinterpreting me And it’s too fiddly to use my finger to correct the text


(((( Here is the beginning of the next realization: ))))

私: My phone doesn’t have enough charge to do video

(((( As I was connecting to Jimmy as a source of stability, I saw the phone battery slowly dying. I could not work out how to charge it and was feeling really sad that I would not be able to connect with him for a few infinities that I would experience between when the phone died and my trip waned.

And that brought the next realization: change is good. The fact that my battery is inexorably heading in one direction (losing energy), it proved to me that I was experiencing time in the correct direction, albeit with infinities of interruptions, each infinitely long. ))))

(((( 02:42 Tuesday 13 March 2018 JST ))))

(((( 10:42 Monday 12 March 2018 Portland ))))

In the aiport now, writing this entry for an hour now, I am going to just slap down some of the other learnings, including the one I just mentioned above

Change is good

I choose my focus

My focus chooses my experience

I can make the right choices

I have the power to choose at each and every moment

These realizations kept coming more and more quickly, possibly subjectively quickly, but I think objectively more quickly as well, stacking up on each other like momentum of goodness.

Okay I am going to try to sleep for a bit. Still a bit more than an hour until boarding.

16:04 Tuesday 13 March 2018 JST

Back in Tokyo, headed to men’s group, all the time dialation effects are worn off.